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Dear life,

Dear Life

This is a pretty amazing gig we got going here – and I want you to know how deeply grateful I am for this chance to wake up and participate with you once more.

Thank you, and talk with you soon,

Love, aa

PS. Let’s have some tea soon, and maybe a hike up in the hills – I’d really like that.

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All Content Copyright © 2012/2013 – Photos/Words by Amy Allis

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Pause

Recently, in a frustrated series of moments, I am agitated, anxious, and have no clue what to do next. I give in, sit down, and ask the Universe, along with anyone or everyone who is possibly listening and might want to chime in –

What can I do when I do not know what to do?

And the answer comes immediately –

Sit and be still.

Really, is it so simple? I decide to explore this a little. What if, in the moments when it seems there is no clue what to do, where to go, who or what to reach for … what if we just hit the pause button, and stop. No movement, no striving, no seeking, searching, fixing, solving. What if this is the perfect thing to do? What if we could then have clear access to the deepest and most honest response to our lives in that moment?

And what if the rest of the response is that being, is enough. Yeah. Sure doesn’t feel like it sometimes… Impatience is not my friend, but we know each other quite well these days, weeks, months.

I am a doer. I love to make things with my hands, to figure out how to fix or repair something, to find a solution that nobody else thought of. I like to learn things, to explore, to go to new places, meet people, hear their stories, and bring a little of their energy back with me. I like to take photos, make music, sing, and laugh a lot. I like to draw, to make a beautiful mess with colors. I like to hike, paddle, climb, ski, swing, fly, run, dance, cycle, and make a big splash somewhere just for the fun of it. I like to play in the garden, dig in the dirt, and see what nature wants to bring to the party. I like to share things, help things, network, link, hug, love, and smile because connection feels really, really good. I got a lot of places I want to go before I pass on to the other side, and hitting the “pause” button, well, that’s fine for later. But now? Now, I definitely have a lot o’things to do! I want to be active, to contribute, to participate… Being still has not been my first choice – ever.

The Universe, she has her own plan. She has been slowly disappearing things from my world. Things that I have known and loved, that have been a comfort, or something solid I could always count on, or even things I have wished for, and now there is no appeal. She has been muting so much of my life that I wonder – who is this person here, anyway?

And so, with a taste of surrender, I do hit the “pause” button. Shoulders down, deep breath. A little sad, that I can not be blissfully unaware, that the old ways no longer work…I have stopped in my life before, but not ever with such a conscious intent to pay attention.

And you know what? There is something sweet in there, once the mind lets go and the willingness takes over. I recognize this feeling, fleeting as it may be, and I like it.

Peace.

The feeling of being at peace. Wow. Once again, is it really so simple? Well, maybe it is, at least in this moment. And, I’ll take it – the moment, that is. And maybe the next one as well. After that, we’ll see what happens. I know amnesia can have a way of settling in, that life can offer her distractions, and yet, for now, I will say –

Thank you, and blessings be.

 All Content Copyright © 2012  Photos/Words by Amy Allis

Coyote and a sort-of mountain

Sitting in my car at the trailhead, writing, listening to some inspiration, making notes — I look up, and a coyote is hustling by – very fast, pauses to dig and sniff, then trotting onward, full of purpose, poised to pounce if something comes near. It is approaching dinner time, I believe.

I say hello, so wonderful to see you, thank you for being here – I’d like to get to know you, is there anything you’d like to share with me?

I am still practicing this listening thing, being still, finding that quiet, nothing place where real listening can happen. Sometimes I seem to be better at it than others. I’m not sure I’m getting anything, and then I hear:

“Get out of your car.”

And then he is gone, disappeared into the brush. I chuckle. Great advice. I realize I have been hanging out indoors working on some things all afternoon, and came here to take a walk, and there I am, still in the car, out of the fog, and the wind – which I am well aware is going to make it a rather brisk walk. But there you have it – who is to question the wisdom and very direct suggestion of a coyote?

So, on go the jackets, and out for a walk.

I am drawn to a trail I have not been on before, pausing many times to listen to the birds, the wind, appreciating the grey-toned beauty in the fog. Around a bend I notice a large rock outcropping at the top of a hill. It is not that impressive, but it keeps catching my attention. I say hello, and there is nothing. I say hello again, and have to slow way down to hear a response. A sort of hello comes back. I smile. I am appreciating the beauty if it’s lines, the colors, I wonder about who lives up there, how it is to be that particular hill.

Not all mountains can be Everest or Annapurna, or K2, or Tamalpais.”

Of course this is true. I am a little apologetic for my earlier thoughts that this rocky hill was not very impressive. And I sense this does not really matter to the hill. It is just fine in it’s place here on the planet. I send love, and keep spending some time. I am enjoying being there, seeing what might come.

I wander around a corner, check out some other views, and come back by once again. I pause, ask if there is a message for me… finding that still place again, and then it comes. It is not in so many words as much as impressions, a sense of this truth being shared.

We are all connected to the core of this earth – it does not matter how big or small, loud or quiet, active or still – we each have a place, we each add to the balance and completeness of what is here. I may be small in your eyes, but my roots are as strong and powerful as any other hill, ridge or mountain, as we are all connected – I am part of the core of the Earth, linked to the center of all. It is in my nature to be what I am, just as I am, right here in this place, and I have peace in this knowing.”

And there it is. Nature has a way of answering a question, even if we are not clear that we have asked it. I smile, nod my head “yes”, with hands on heart, and say many thank yous.

Indeed, there may be a grand purpose I would like to fulfill, or a big dream, or a service I would so much like to offer – something that will help what is or is not happening, changing, shifting on this world. The imbalances and inequities, the pain and misunderstandings, it can all be so overwhelming for any of us who care at all about another. We each have our part to offer, no matter how small it may seem, or how unclear it feels, or how “unimpressive” it might be. Yeah. The world is ready and waiting for each of us. Time indeed, to get out of the car.

All Content Copyright © 2012  Photos/Words by Amy Allis

We love the dirt people

I have an old friend who would cringe at my using the word “dirt”… I can hear her saying “soil, it’s soil you are talking about – a living, breathing, rich and living substance, that makes our plants grow!” Well, OK, those last few words are probably mine, but, that is the idea. I asked her once what her favorite animal was – her answer: worms. Of course! She loves growing things, and she loves teaching all kinds of people about growing things. And not just growing things, but doing so in ways that allow all beings here to thrive together.

We humans are not the only ones on this planet who wish to live a vibrant and balanced life. We are surrounded by living beings on so many levels who are more than willing to collaborate, and teach us how, if we want to listen. So many of the people I have met who love to work with their hands in the earth, are these kinds of people. They want to discover and practice how to truly live in balance with other species, and to welcome the support and innate wisdom of these beings, communities, living systems who we are really just getting to know. Maybe you are one of these people? If so, I salute you!

Me, I am one who loves nature, and growing things can be a delight, yet, there is something about the real dirt-lovin folks that I do not have, something that many of us do not have. So, let’s take a moment to say some things out loud right now!

Here is a profound Thank You to all the Farming Folks, the Gifted Gardeners, the Get Down in the Dirt With Feelin’ People for your love of earth and living things and for growing them with a dedication to harmony and true collaboration, for a patient kindness that we know makes a difference. Thank you for your stamina, your willingness to hang in there, your ability to get creative with solutions and finding ways to support each other even when it seems crazy to want to keep on. We love you, we celebrate you, and we are dedicated to finding ways to honor and support all that you are and do. Yes, indeed.

So, my friends — below is a list of easy and wonderful ways we can support our own health, the health of this planet, and show our profound thanks to the ones who play in the dirt and grow things with heart — we love the dirt people!

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Find a Farmer’s Market, or maybe start one! (Few of my favs – Marin, SF Bay Area, East Bay, Davis, Madison )

Vote for your favorite market! (And support farmland conservation while you’re there…)

Volunteer at your local Organic Farm – great fun, great food benefits, great exercise

Join a CSA – Community Supported Agriculture (lots of listings by each area – have some fun!)

Donate to your local Open Space or Farmland Trust – great community folks here as well. (Examples: Sonoma, MALT, Yolo, Solano, many more!)

Learn about the many benefits of local and Organic Food  (Slow Food, Slow Cities, Organic Food, Organic Health Benefits.)

Try it yourself, grow something with love, and maybe eat it! (Many ways to do this – Apartments, Small Space,  Urban, Aquaponics – a personal fav! Great Aquaponics class, and Online Community here.)

And last, but definitely not least – Hug a farmer, or anyone else who would love a hug… never too many of those to be had.

Blessings Be!

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 All Content Copyright © 2012  Photos/Words by Amy Allis

The Guardians…

“Thank you… for everything”

We are only beginning to understand the powerful gifts trees offer us every day of our lives. Perhaps it’s time to take a moment, and say this thank you from each of our waking and breathing hearts, to open to a very real and important role available to us at this time – to step up as true Stewards of this living Earth. Please enjoy this short film, created as a collaborative gift for the trees, text and narration from the book “The Trees”.

The Guardians

winner of the Films for the Forest 2012 Professional Category.

 All Content Copyright © 2012  Photos/Words by Amy Allis